This is likely to be a bit heavy, so bear with me…
Last night I had a dream. It was in real time, full technicolour and with sound. I dreamed that I came home from work with a headache, snapped at my family and then went to bed where I had a stroke. Pretty much fully paralysed I tried to get my family to help but couldn’t communicate with them. Eventually I managed to fall out of bed. I remember the details of the kitchen I walked through, the colour of the stove, the bedroom, the colour of the carpet. I felt myself hit the floor. I heard myself grunting as I tried to speak.
It was a horrible experience. When I woke up, I couldn’t move so I was rather frightened to say the least. After a few moments I was fine. It was all a dream after all.
Many years ago, I had a similar experience. This time I died. There was a war going on and the air raid warning sounded. It was a nuclear war. I hurried down into this big concrete underground shelter with hundreds of others. The bomb dropped. I felt the shockwave then the lights went out and the ceiling collapsed, crushing us all to death. I woke up rather quickly in a cold sweat, shaking. I had experienced my own death.
I have a couple of theories that explain all this and to be honest I can’t say if they’re home spun or if I picked them up from somewhere. Before I go into them, let’s reflect on Stephen Hawking for a moment. After all, he is recognised as a right clever bastard…
Hawking reckons that there are more then 3 dimensions. Several more, in fact. I don’t profess to understand all of it, but he describes our reality as being akin to a shadow on a wall. A mere layer in many dimensions. Other eminent physicists such as Alan Guth at MIT and Sean Carroll propose that if you accept the big bang theory, then it is inconceivable that other parallel universes do not exist.
Hawking also reckons that time is not linear but that we experience it in this way so that our brains can cope with it. I’m not so sure, but it does fit with my theories.
Theory one: Reality doesn’t exist. I as an individual entity am not actually a human being in a corporeal body. I exist as an ‘intelligence’ of some sort and as such existence is merely something that my being has invented around me. When I ‘die’ in one life, my consciousness flits back to another create another ‘life’ for me. As time is not linear, these inventions sometimes overlap, hence my experience last night.
Theory two: This uses the multiple dimensions hypothesis. There are many layers of existence. This ‘life’ is just one of them. There are many versions of me in many different versions of ‘reality’. What I experienced last night and all those years ago is what I describe as ‘bleed over’. This is where another version of me experiences a traumatic event. The experience is so traumatic that it connects across all versions of reality and all the versions of myself feel it.
Now you might think that all of this a load of pretentious old bollocks, but the beauty of all this is two fold. Firstly, it all fits with Hawking’s theories.
Secondly, if theory one is correct then you don’t really exist other than as an invention of my mind. And, even better, if I am right then I don’t exist other than a figment of your imagination. So there is no point in you trying to argue with me because you’re really only arguing with yourself.
I did warn you it was deep…